First Smile!

We've had a rough few days, but this afternoon I forgot all about the last 48 hours when Ainsley smiled for the first time. We had just got home from the doctor's office and I changed her diaper and had her on my lap talking to her when she looked up at me and I could see it starting out of the corner of her mouth and sure enough, her whole mouth curved up and she smiled at me! I completely lost it and started crying and called Joel to tell him. It's amazing how rough a couple days can be and then one little thing can make you completely forget about them! Of course, I've been trying to get her to do it again and she won't budge. It was the sweetest thing in the whole world when she looked up at me and gave me that gummy smile!

Our last few days haven't been the easiest. Tuesday night she projectile vomited again, and this time it was a lot worse than the first time she did it. She was in her Nap Nanny in the bedroom and it went everywhere. She was covered in it, the Nap Nanny was covered, and it even went so far that it got on our sheets. I thought I was going to be sick because I was so worried about her, and of course, I was crying because I felt horrible. She hasn't done it since, and actually slept pretty good that night. Wednesday I thought she was getting sick. Her voice (I know she really doesn't have a voice, but her grunts, etc.) sounded raspy, her nose was stuffed up, and her temperature was running around 99.5. Thursday was absolutely horrible and I hope I never have another day like that again. She was fussy all day and couldn't get comfortable. I had to hold her for most of the day and even then, she would still squirm and fuss in my arms. At that point, I started thinking it was her acid reflux because she would gag and try to cough something up that wasn't there. I know Joel could care less if we ever have a night like Thursday night again. I put her to bed around 10:30 and she was fussy, so Joel got up with her and took her into the living room. I woke up around one and neither of them was back in the bedroom. I got up and looked in the living room and Joel was asleep on the couch and Ainsley was asleep in her bouncer. I didn't want to wake them up, so I went back to bed. Joel came in and woke me up at 5 to take her. I couldn't believe that I slept that long. Seven entire hours of pretty much uninterrupted sleep....that's unheard of! I have to say that it felt pretty good. Joel wasn't very happy, and I know he was very frustrated through the night. I still can't believe he didn't come wake me up sooner.

Mom came up today to watch her while I worked, and she was still pretty fussy. I tried to call the doctor again and they finally called me back around 2. They wanted me to bring her in so they could listen to her. RSV was on their mind and they wanted to rule it out. They listened to her, took her oxygen level, looked in her ears, and said that everything looked good. It made me feel a little better knowing she didn't have an infection, but we still didn't get any answers on her fussiness and why it seems like she's in pain with her throat. She has seemed better since we got home from the doctor, so hopefully it was just a few day thing and it's starting to pass.

They weighed her at the doctor's office, and she was 9 pounds 6 ounces! That was with her clothes on and a pretty wet diaper, so I'm guessing she's really around 8 1/2-9 pounds, but she's definitely putting on the pounds!!! We've moved up to size 1 diapers, and I had to put most of her newborn clothes away the other day because she has outgrown them.

I've been forgetting to mention in the last few posts that she's started crying real tears. When she's fussing/crying and I see real tears, I feel terrible! She has also started grabbing my hair every time I pick her up. She gets a handful of it, and it's hard to get it out of her hands sometimes!

Our baby is changing daily and I don't know if I'm ready for all of it! She's not the itty bitty baby we brought home from the hospital just a few short weeks ago.